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Over the course of my deconversion I experienced a variety of emotions towards church and Christianity in particular, somewhat similar to the stages of grief. There was a time when I was bitter and angry at the church, because I felt that I had wasted almost 20 years of my life. I felt pity, because I came to view religion as a crutch and wishful thinking that many people have a need to latch onto instead of accepting the reality of things and learning skills to cope with things like grief and adversity. But the one feeling that surprised me most is envy. I envy Christians because it is much more pleasant and hopeful to believe that life doesn't end at death. That there a reason for everything. That you can just put all your troubles at the feet of god and everything will fine. Sometimes I think it would be easier to believe that. Sometimes I think I would be happier. But I very strongly don't believe that. And knowing what I do now, I think it's all but impossible to convert back. Imagine what it would take to believe in Santa or the tooth fairy again. I am convinced that what I believe is the truth. The occasional despair is just something I'm going to have to come to terms with. It does make me think though, is it better to believe an unpleasant truth, or a happy lie?

brandonut 4 June 3
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Those are only the first two stages. While we believed in literal Heaven we had no way of knowing a greater truth existed. In the next stage we have no way of knowing a greater truth exists than 'no literal Heaven'. The third stage reveals Heaven to be real but not what we thought it was. Happy truth exists.

skado Level 9 June 3, 2018
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Oh, yes. The one that hit me the hardest was that I would not be reunited with my parents or learn the wonder of what God was.

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Have I not told you that ye are Gods. Psalm 82:6 John 10:34. Just because we are "sons of God" doesn't mean God is a conscious being. Today we know that everything is just energy in different forms. Therefore God was just energy all along, along with whatever laws of nature that caused molecules to form into conscious beings. The problem is, this truth is cold comfort in times of duress and so people create God in their own image. This doesn't need to be a negative thing either if we can simply improve humanity's self image.

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Life doesn't end with death.

Einstein taught us that all matter is a form of energy, so since energy can neither be created nor destroyed, we have always existed and will always exist in some energy form. No reason to think souls don't exist, and quantum physics already tells us different dimensions exist.

"For us believing physicists, the distinction between past, present and future is only a stubbornly persistent illusion." -Einstein.

There has been a lot reincarnation research with children ages 2-6 who remember past lives, where researchers are able to verify what the children remember..past conversations, events, knowing family members in another place, even several children, who had been murdered in a past life, leading police to their old bodies and pointing out their murderers, who confessed.

Some children remembered being animals, trees, being on other planets, or being ghosts between reincarnations. Yet the details of many of the incidents they remembered while in these forms were confirmed by the researchers.

Both my sister and I were born remembering a past life and I have since remembered some events of about seven reincarnations, even one as an ancient wolf. I was even able to google a few of the events I remembered from a past reincarnations and found the details to be true.

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been there.... holding on to that old peace, is preventing finding another. acceptance and wonder

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