I read something a while ago that reasonates well with me. “Happiness is NOT the DEFAULT human condition”. And that resonates well with me being the computer nerd that I am and knowing exactly what default means. Happiness needs constant tuning into. Working for. If you get my meaning....

We are all born with differing mindsets. I don't have any answers for your depression Dominic, but I am forever grateful that I was born with the "glass half full" mindset rather than the the opposite! Whatever works for you.

I feel like I am doing everything right, but still not good enough. I have felt like I have not only failed as a human being, but failed as a mammal for being unable to attract a suitable mate to carry my seed. I have failed as a living organism. Really, I am doing everything right. I have a house, a new car, a good job, education, no criminal record, I don’t use drugs or alcohol, I am a veteran, and I am not ugly. Yet I feel none of that matters and my life has no purpose. I work hard for nothing and nobody.

Unless that doctor is an attractive woman with mutual attraction, they cannot help me. They are drug dealers.

I have got help. It either has not helped or is not helping fast enough. I don’t need medication. I don’t need mor debt to accrue for something that is not working. I need to find someone and legitimately be in love. No settling, lowering standards, it has to be love. I am not asking for much. It should not be impossible. I’m not going to be happy without it. Everything else is a diversion.

I've suffered depression and anxiety attacks for many years and im 56. you got to learn to live with it really.

I feel ya brother. I too battle depression but I’ve found that my friends are always there to lift me up if I’m open and honest about my feelings. I use to think it “unmanly” to share my depression with my true friends. I was wrong. Being strong doesn’t mean you have to suffer alone. Share brother.

I do not know how my life experience could improve, or add to your own. I had treated my body like a toxic waste dump, and that reflected upon my friends and family. I poisoned myself spiritually too. I can't have kids. I had to accept that I am never going to completely heal...but that I must strive to do no harm anymore. I am content.

I do hope you are getting professional help for your mental illness. In this day and age there is plenty of help available. Happy New Year.

Please talk to your doctor. Some people have chemical imbalances and don't get diagnosed until they turn 40-been there done that. Then I had a genius in my life who suggested I go off my meds-major disaster-couldn'tget back on them fast enough. You need help. Please ask for it.