My dad is a Baptist preacher so I seen the hypocrisy from the inside. I don't believe any god could ever alow for things like cancer or having your child die. I just want to hear others stories
As a kid, my mom would make me memorize bible verses as a punishment. The verses all had something to do with what I had done wrong. I got so interested in the bible that I read that book from cover to cover. When I was done, I realized that it was nothing more than fables, designed to make me give money to the assholes preaching at me. All the talk about how god told Hagar to go back to her rapist pedophile master Abraham made me feel ill. God flooded the world and only left one small family to repopulate the world made me think of incest. Adam and Eve were the same. Then when lot's daughters tricked him into having sex with them it got worse because god said that it was wrong. The so called perfect being can't seem to make up his own mind. I was 10 yrs old when I read that crap, and haven't found any other religion that makes any more sense than christianity does.
I had the opposite experience, I was born this way. Neither parent described or impressed a god concept on us, relatives either. For lack of a more realistic term, I feel blessed Though situations like yours leave me feeling guilty for not having to fight my way to reality, as so many have...
I grew up in a fairly conservative family, but my mother was always dissatisfied and searching. We attended lots of different kinds of Christian churches, moved a lot. I believed most of my life and really leaned on Christian friends in my final years of belief. My church was great and kind, but I reached a point where I was ready, I didn't need it anymore. I went back to the science shows I had been watching before joining the last church. Neil Degrasse Tyson led to listening to the atheist scientists, then just the atheists. Wow. There went my vestiges of belief and it's wonderful. Now I need free-thinking friends as precious to me as the Christians are/were.
I posted this in a message to someone recently, so I'll just copy/paste... I was raised generically xstian, in that my mom didn't really belong to one particular denomination. She went to both presbyterian and methodist churches when I was a kid and took my brother and I to church with her on most Sundays. But she was a single, working mom, so she got tired of getting up to go to church every Sunday after a long work week and stopped going. She never stopped believing and living a very religiously repressed existence, which she extended to her children, but she didn't attend church regularly any more. She took my brother and I to Sunday services for a while after she stopped, but eventually we all mutually agreed that we'd rather sleep in on Sundays and stopped going, which was fine with me. When I was in high school, she encouraged me to start attending a church youth group to help my social life. The only church in the area that had an active youth group was the baptist church, so I spent a couple of years trying to fit in with them, but never really did. There was a lot of typical teenage flirting going on in the youth group, kids doing everything but seriously making out (although coming damn close), followed by religiosity and sermonizing coming out of their mouths, judging other non-church-going kids for the same things they were doing, so it all seemed hypocritical to me. When the youth group started holding seminars on why current pop music was 'evil' and expecting us to 'witness' and start converting people to the baptist faith, my skepticism grew and I eventually left the group, didn't return again.
Technically, we are all born atheists. Atheist is the default until society indoctrinates us into some religion. I was raised Baptist but always doubtful. Not until I was about 35 did I honestly admit to myself that I really didn't believe in any god.
I grew up with only my mom and she never forced any religion on me although her family was heavily religious. Growing up, you see the hypocrisy in the church and religion and now watching the church force themselves into everyones daily business angers me......ggggrrrrr!
The failure of religious faith to accurately explain or predict experienced reality, resulting in cognitive dissonance and poor life decisions. The discovery of a better epistemology that actually works (at the expense of explaining a reality I was, at least initially, way less comfortable with).
I grew up without a television and dinner each night usually involved a debate of some type. The two rules were you better be able to back up your position logically, and you had to admit when you were wrong.
Seeing my father and my mother admit when they were wrong had a powerful effect on me and the insistence on having facts to back up what I said taught me to reason and to apply that reasoning to what others said.
In other words, I was taught from a young age that merely believing in something didn't make it accurate.
I was brought up a Catholic but I worked out for myself at a fairly young age that this god guy takes all the credit but none of the responsibility. That didn't seem right and I have never been able to square the circle, so don't try. That 'revelation' was the thin end of a very long and thick life long wedge
I never really "prayed," and I was not/never religious- except perhaps when I was 11 and my childhood dog was going to die. I cried in the shower "please God don't let him die." He died the next day. I was not expecting a "God" to do anything, but was so distraught and young, just "tried" I guess. I realized that it was quite silly and perhaps selfish to think a God would intervene in a dog dying. It was just more "personal" evidence of no God.
I was also raised in a Baptist Church and saw the inner workings. I personally don't believe in the monotheistic religious models. I do believe that our existence is owed to an extraterestrial intervention. I find that evidence more compelling than the usual theologian stance to not question their god... More specifically I do lean toward the Sumerian accounts of the Annunaki. In the text on Cuneiform Tablets described too many things in detail about our solar system, and the creation of human beings through gene splicing thay was recorded around 6000 years ago. I feel that most people lack the capacity to understand it in earnest. As for cancer, I lost my grandma on Jan 28, 2018 to an extremely agressive and fast growing cancer only discovered the previous October. However, due to the massive amounts of money spent by the big pharma companies curatives and treatments that work are often kept illegal or secret. I do believe if we could take ths money power away from those incharge, come together and reconcile our differences as a human race the world would be a better place for us all!
What made agnostic is the same thing that defines sexuality, It is just who you are, be natural and be confident. Think about your age and what your take would be if you never were told this is the word of god Think about how you would see things. agnostic is only natural