what do you mean by initiary? you mean someone or something that created the universe? no. anyone who knows even the tiniest bit of science knows that there was and is no creator. if you can't believe that, i am sorry. you are entitled to your beliefs but it saddens me that you cannot accept reality.

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The same god as what??

That is an argument from incredulity, which is inherently fallacious. That you can or can't believe something does not cause god to exist or [dis]prove that he exists.

When we consider questions at very large or small scales (in terms of size or time or both) things don't necessarily remain intuitive for creatures of time with brief lifespans. I would be astonished if they did.

For example, there's no proof that the universe is not eternal and in absolutely no need for a first mover to explain its existence. There's no way to prove or disprove the existence of a supernatural creator in any event, so we're never going to be able to say anything supportable about that.

If there is an initiatory, what therefore started the initiatory, and what started that which started the initiatory, and so on ad infinitum . . . . I consider myself Agnostic because no one has found any way to prove questions like this one way or another.

There are many definitions of god.

Your faith (belief without evidence) based initiatory has no supporting facts to support it's existence so it (free of facts or evidence) does sound like a typical god.

Believe whatever you want. That does not make it so.