When I was a child, I was the only person in my family that chose to be religious. I went to church by myself.
As a teen, I was singing and making up a religious song which made me feel euphoric. At that moment, a gold pen cap with hands in prayer literally fell from above and landed right in front of me.
As I got older and questioned religion and its history, the pen cap disappeared from where I always kept it (never to be seen again).
As an adult, I have no interest in religion. Yet, I'm an educated, hard-working individual who has terrible luck. When the 'fear of social control' (believe in God or you will go to hell) is instilled in a child, do you think it has a subconscious effect on the way we behave as adults? Am I somehow manifesting my own bad luck, or do I just have dumb luck?
I think maybe how you perceive events in your life might make you think you have bad luck. When I was 30, a roof I was working on collapsed with me on it. I fell 20 feet and broke my back. I was able to walk away from this with just four vertebrate fractured. People would always tell me i was "Lucky" because I didn't have more damage done. As I was laying in the floor ground or whatever with back spasms when trying to do the simple every day tasks, I was thinking "This is good luck???? I'll take a double scoop of bad please!" after I had recovered enough to function without pain. I realized it was a good thing. I had living my life like I was invincible and this taught me that I was indeed mortal. I was never much afraid of going to hell. a teacher In 8th grade explained to me that Hell is just grave in latin. You sound like you have your life in order, You have made some good luck with your accomplishments even if you need a spell checker for entrepreneur, but who doesn't?
College professor, published author, professional musician and an entrepeneur - doesn't sound too unlucky to me. Are you homeless, in an abusive relationship, been physically assaulted, thrown in jail, tortured for your beliefs? If not, you are not unlucky.
Shit Happens, to everybody, at the worst possible time and in the worst possible way, that's just Murphy's Law. The lucky ones in this world get knocked down just like everybody else, then they stagger back to their feet and get back in the game, they don't lie there on the ground complaining about their bad luck.
Everything you say and do as a child forms you as an adult. There is no default position except the most basic level of human instinct.
The "pen cap" whatever that is, is a red herring. I don't see why it is relevant except that you seem to harbour some delusion about it.
Luck does not exist. It's just how you react to your own expectations. But you might want to do some 'mindfulness' training, and think out your assumptions about the world.
Start with the pen cap.
Yes, I've read where it can have a psychological effect on people, the subconscious, the sin can cause guilt, the blind faith, believing in something you can't see, with no evidence, some people break through the hoax, when they become an adult, and some don't, I've read where children have nightmares from the threat of eternal hell if they don't obey, can cause psychological damage, I've read were religion can impede human progress, because people think that there religion and invisible god solves everything, it may have something to do also with all of the money that goes into the big church organizations, I just heard that we would be far more advanced if it wasn't for religion, regarding the bad luck, that's just whatever happens, happens, that has nothing to do with the supernatural, although cristian people believe it does.
On the subconscious I'm not sure, but it consciously affected me. As a male teen going through puberty I mentally tortured myself every time I masturbated, thinking I was sinning. When I got more educated about the human body and how normal it was, I rebelled against Christianity and have never looked back.