Don't panic? It starts out by talking about it Paul. Get some seroquil before it gets worse.

Yes... on occasion.

Nope, I don't think I have those cells in my brain. I've had my share of whatever but the idea has never crossed my mind.... Not at all

If you commit suicide you'll probably live to regret it.

Indeed I have

Nothingness has always been the most difficult concept for me with respect to aethism. It is both terrifying and strangely reassuring at the same time. Is suicide cowardice or the epitome of courage? Only you can decide.

Songs about death have always cheered me up.
Bo Burnham - Kill Yourself

yes

I’m suspicious of people who haven’t.

Pfft. It's almost a daily thing. Once you're dead nothing matters. I'm too lazy and uninterested ti do anything.

I currently feel that way, Paul. but i'm the same as you: I wouldn't go all the way in action, because as long as I have the energy to pro-actively do mortal harm to myself, there is also enough energy to bear the pain that little bit longer - until it abates. or in other words: i'd have to be miles-down depressed in order to wish my self dead - but then I wouldn't have the energy.

but yeah, currently i'm at a real low again. at times I flow with it, or rather let it flow out of me; at other times I just watch it & am overwhelmed.

wishing us all more love

Yep.

I'm not trying to be condesending but I would seek some help for that. At least make sure that you've talked with someone professional about it. These thoughts alone are signs of depression. There is medication which can help substantially.

Yes. I even attempted suicide once. That emotional wound has left an indelible mark.

I attempted it 3x all three times i did in fact die but was brought back e everytime

I have never been suicidal. I have, however, experienced depression. I have taken 150 mg of effexor for the last 15 years. The drug does what it is intended to do. I no longer experience the lows associated with a chemical imbalance in my brain.

Every single day for years. Made several attempts in the past, but obviously failed, ended up in psych wards subjected to ableist laws and policies, maltreatment, etc. Physician assisted death was decriminalized around that time here (Canada), but the laws that were put in place to replace it are far more restrictive than the court ruling. So now I'm waiting for progress on changes to eligibility for people without terminal conditions or suffering from mental conditions. The treatment I got last time I was admitted left me with new PTSD triggers, flashbacks, etc. so I'm hoping I'll become eligible soon so I won't be forced to try again myself and risk their abuse again.

Psychological pain is close to physical pain... Without wanting to take antidepressants i've found Tylenol and advil somewhat help when I too start wanting to die even though I really want to live to see my kids grow up.

If not by accident, massive heart attack, stroke,etc... My death will be at a time of my choice and by my hand.

For those of you that said "Yes" do you speak to a professional counselor at all or consult a psychiatrist? You need to.

I tried to kill myself often growing up. One day I stopped wanting to die. Then I once found out there is something much worse than being suicidal and that's not feeling anything at all. Somehow I've never been suicidal at all, and I want to live. I'm 10 years free of any suicidal ideation, but it's hard for me, because I know it doesn't just cure itself. It's a lifetime affliction. It will come back someday. I just try very hard to make safety measures for when it does. I have a lot of survivors guilt, I guess. When someone commits suicide it hurts and scares me a lot because I'm not stronger than them so why am I okay now?

YES, but im glad it didnt work, its the people that you leave behind that suffer more. . Perhaps you could start up a disscussion group ?

When I was young and my stepfather would beat the shit out of me.