I can't believe my fucking father died at that rest home. i feel so hollow inside, and guilty as fuck because someone hacked his ATM and he wanted $350 dollars that i didn't have and i was avoiding his phone calls because of it. and plus i have strong phone anxiety. i wish i had a strong beer right now to numb the pain.
Well, sorry, but wth would he want $350 in a rest home? Sounds like he was being scammed......
It is not your fault he died and it is not your fault you could not help him financially. I am sure he still knew you loved him and he loved you as well. Remember all the good times and positive memories you had together to help you get through. If you two had a healthy relationship, I am sure he knew you cared about him. No point beating yourself up over one mistake.