My October thus far: 10/6 Eddie Van Halen dies. Not good at all even though I knew it was coming. He was a big part of me growing up learning music. 10/8 the anniversary of my dad's death. 10/12 my friend (39) dies of cancer out of no where. 10/16 is dad's birthday.10/16 I check myself back into the hospital because my symptoms haven't gone away. Fuck October.