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Think just about everyone has a monster in their closet. When I was just seven years old my mom married this guy. He was at first take to to the ball game sort of dude. Then one day the belittling started your retarded your stupid not long after that the belt came out as a whip, then the smacking more name calling. After that about twelve the fist came flying as if a twelve-year-old could compete with a grown man's fist. I finally left home at sixteen shortly after my stepfather punched me in the face and broke my nose. I had spent many years trying to kill the pain and heal the scars he had left me with. Drank until I was blind drunk on many occasions. Then alcohol was not enough pills and pot never tried anything hard like coke or heroin it had crossed my mind a time or two. Never could keep a relationship very long. Think I was very self-destructive back then. I am almost fifty now have never been married. I have been sober for seven years. I have got my life in order own a house two great kids that tell me they love me without provocation tons of animals. The sadness I had felt most of my youth and young adult life are but a distant memory my kids and I laugh with each other just about every day. Next time you that you go to call someone stupid or be mean change it into something positive.

azzow2 9 June 10
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Thanks for sharing such a personal story. Glad you came out better in the end. Positivity costs nothing.

Marz Level 7 June 11, 2018
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Thanks for sharing your pain and struggles AND your found self! You deserve all your present good and more...all your days!!

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That asshole dad of mine didnt help you unless there was something in it for him. he would get mad at mom and make us little children try to clean the kitchen. Dump the draw on the table if a spoon was wet. We stood on chairs to do the dishes. He was like a monkey. What he couldn't fuck up, he would shit on. Hmmm... I'm glad hes passed on.

The way that we were mistreated was not our fault. The way that we choose to be and treat others with kindness is our own doing.

@azzow2 yes... I just think of my 3 siblings that couldn't run away like me. I did choose to come back. Biggest mistake that led to mountains of others ones.

@BucketlistBob I am the oldest i have 2,half brothers and 2 half sisters The youngest is a heroin addict the next up promiscuous pot alcohol and did not fall from the tree treated every one like she is the queen my brothers the youngest went through pot spurt he owns a business although has been married 3 times. The one right under me even though he is successful he has done so many drugs he has gotten Parkinson's like symptoms now. Just look back and knowing what I know the world has a long way to go until it can change.

@azzow2. Damn... love you man.

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Wow. Your story rings familiar. It is great when we can look back and see how far we have come. Well done you.

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glad you have come out on top of all that!

btroje Level 9 June 10, 2018
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True!

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Thank you for sharing your life with us. Every time we speak, our words can be a fist or a caress.

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Yes, most of us have something. Unfortunately, the emotional abuse persists long after the physical abuse stops. I'm sorry you went through it but glad you have been able to put the past behind you and live in the present...and that your present world is pretty darn great!

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I am really sorry that you went through that. I wish you had had supportive, loving adults caring for you. Congratulations for not continuing the cycle of abuse with your own children.

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