Thinking about my ex: 'You Are the Hole in Me'
You are the hole in me.
Too many years
For that hole
Ever to heal.
Less ragged,
Less bloody
But remains unfilled.
Tried,
But you wouldn't.
Said,
But you couldn't.
Pushed,
But you won't.
Backed off,
But you don't.
Defensive
But not much fight.
If your mirror's
So hideous
Did you expect this?
The gray in my beard
And the creak in my joint
Is the hourglass emptying out.
There is not another.
You are the hole in me.
You are and always will be.
I don't understand my ex at all. Its comical how blind I was to all the lies and gaslighting. But I still feel like if only I had said this or if only she knew that maybe it would have worked.
The bottom line is that she has made up a false narrative because her parents did not like me, and it was easier for her to get rid of me than have a rift between her and them. The lies are comically absurd, but the rejection hurts all the more because I know it not true.
Her family are Trump supporters and I am not. They could not even bring themselves to talk to me.
Thanks for sharing the poem. It pretty much sums it up.
Nice, never been able to do much about my ex wife. Not when dating, not on 19 years of marriage, not on 18 years divorced. Everyone else is fair game, she is like walled!!!! Anyways... very nice.
For better or worse past relationships leave a mark on us.