I very nearly died today. I have had epidurals before, but nothing prepared me for what happened after this one.
I was fully cognizant for this experience. Yes I had anxiety, but it wasn't enough to cause that. After he injected the medicine I felt my feet start to go numb. Then it crawled up my body. It was about 2 minutes for my lungs and diaphragm to stop moving. I kept trying to tell them I couldn't breathe. I managed to squeeze out the little air I could get to utter "can't breathe" but that took so much out of me. The nurses kept telling me I was breathing, but I know I wasn't. I couldn't keep my eyes open. They said "she's talking so she's breathing" but I barely whispered because I couldn't get any air in. The O2 sensor read 94 but in preop I was holding my breath and it didn't drop so I know it doesn't read right. My blood pressure plummeted and my skin grew cold and grey, my eyes were bright red, all from lack of oxygen. It took about an hour of serious fighting before my lungs and diaphragm started working properly again, and another hour to feel my body.
This was even more terrifying than anaphylaxis because when I go into anaphylaxis I know what is happening and why. This was me, knowing I was dying, with nurses telling me I'm fine, and no idea why I was having this reaction.
I will never have another epidural again. This was not okay by any stretch, and I'm very angry that they were going to let me code because a faulty O2 sensor said I was fine.
I am so angry. My head is in atrocious pain and I'm doing weird word substitutions i didn't do before. But most of all my head hurts terrible