One of favorite books is " God knows " by Joseph Heller It is King Davids story told in the first person. In it he laments his lot including " Why the fuck didt I get a book. Everybody gets a book , even that idiot schmuck of a stepson Solomon gets a book! I build the temple bring back the ark to Jerusalem....and that statue of me? Dont get my started, he`s not even circumcised! "

One of your fellow antipodeans from Sydney, Clive James wrote a poem entitled " the book mine enemy has been remaindered " lol

Perhaps bewilderment and confusion at how things actually work in regards to how they should work.

The old saying... give credit where its due. It don't always happen ... we see it not happening and it sucks. Get this ... i complained about climbing ladders to get to my job. Had to pull up my tools. 40 feet is a long way now days. I went ahead and retired because of my neuropathy and arthritis. I told them i coundnt do it anymore. I found out later that they installed stairs in place of the ladders. They're still worried about me...lol. hmm.... i retired from there in good standing as far as im concerned. I like visiting my old shop every Christmas for a free feast...yummm. plus there's a ladder now. How cool is that fear...lol.

I think I can relate.

envy?