When I read this I feel good because I remember the relief it brought me. I remember the feeling of being in the dark. I had heard others express it, but I had never experienced that kind of darkness. I thought of ways to "overcome it" None of those things seemed to work. Finally It came to me to allow myself to be immersed in this feeling, to totally be submerged in a way almost self-indulgent and then to release it. To let it go forever. I imagined all of the darkness flying away. It's never come back

Awesome words. So very descriptive.

Very insightful. Interestingly, in a book I recently read about romantic relationships, it stated that a very important part of a strong relationship is, "Romantic love is not based on the need for approval, but on the need for visibility." It fits with what you seemed to be lacking in your life.

Wow... that's a really dark time you were going through... It's good that you wrote it down... as it might have indirectly (subconsciously) provided some therapy - because you released it on paper.
Hope those dark times... are long gone...

I am glad that you made it back from that dark place. I've been there,too -- and it hurts so deeply.

Interesting, I envision you as a rock. But, people go through periods of being. I'm sorry you had a dark time, and I'm happy that you have recovered. I hope it is not recurring as your repeating that you, "almost became invisible," four times. I'm happy you can share; thanks. Be well.