I'm so sorry. I put down my canine soulmate of a decade last July. I still think of him daily. I think our dogs are probably the only beings who love us unconditionally. You're right -- you will at some point begin to remember more happy memories than sad. But for now, respect his memory by experiencing your pain.

I appreciate your sorrow,.......have been fortunate enough to have not had to live without a fur buddy for many, many years.... have lost my friends to everything from cancer and old age, to neglect for thinking he was safe, and he wasn't.......without fail, I wind up getting drunk and crying my eyes red for three or four days....then I go find another to train me to their liking...pictured is the little girl that rescued me about eight and a half years ago, and has almost got me following her demands perfectly....I heartly suggest finding a new trainer as soon as possible.....hopefully your sorrow will be short, and your future be filled with fond memories, and productive training.