Why would you want to know this about individuals?

My experience with depression was that it destroyed all my enthusiasm for life, all of my self-confidence, all of my emotional resilience, and generally made me wish I was dead, for which, on occasion, I would make elaborate plans for bringing about, but managed to stop short of enacting any of them. I felt inadequate, and unable to do anything about it... with no change in sight.

Thankfully, I have not suffered from this in four years now.

copied from myself in another post

People often ask me what it's like to be colorblind. What words could I use to compare my everyday experience to a reality I have never had. I've always been colorblind

The same is true of chronic depression. WTF do you want me to say? Why don't some of you try to describe what it's like to NOT be depressed? That should be interesting.

I'm tired all the time but can't sleep. Honestly, the main indicator I'm slipping into depression is an overwhelming feeling of indifference. I don't care about things that are typically important to me.

I have not been depressed for 30 years, but when I was I felt life I was trapped in a continuous replay of the same negative thoughts and feeling that I could not escape. I pulled away from people and from activities, and was rapped in the never ending replay.

It's a feeling of disconnection and listlessness. I feel like there are heavy weights holding down my mind and my body, and everything I experience is from behind a thick sheet of dirty plexiglass -- inaccessible, cut-off. I feel totally lost and immobilized -- but I also know that's masking intense sadness and despair, which I know I need to break through in order to move past it, because what I've come to understand is depression is how I shut down strong emotions.