I think I’ve finally been through all that I can handle. I am busting my ass to graduate and make something of myself but the outside world just keeps testing me. I had made plans to move out when our lease ended last December but our new roommate was in an abusive home and we agreed to renew our lease if she would stay until this December when it ends. I explained how this would put us in a horrible rut if she did not honor that and she promised we would have to worry. I should have done a written lease for her but we never have had to with any of our other roommates. Now after her moving two of her friends in here, that couple has decided their moving out March 1st which was a small setback until the other roommate decided she was going to up and leave in a month so she can live rent free with her parents in Arkansas. Why was this not an option before? Why even move into our home if this was an option? I can’t even talk reasonably with her right now. I am so angry and scared because of the place she has put me in. I have no income because I’m in the middle of my internship, no guaranteed job in this town once May comes (because I’m in a program that requires me to work for DHS to pay back my loans & ours is not hiring), no idea what town I’ll have to move to at that point, the money I had saved to get through To April will have to go towards our last months bills, my dog unexpectedly had puppies that I have to get rid of in a month, I have no place to keep my two dogs if I have to stay with my grandpa or my parents (who can both be abusive), I have a 20 paged paper I have to have done by March 6th, and my car has a donut and two flats on it at the moment so I don’t even have guaranteed transportation. I have never been this low in my life and all I needed was for this semester to give me some sort of break & instead it started with my nana overdosing and has turned into all of this. All I can do is cry. Never in my life did I think I would be in this situation so close to finally being to a point where I’m “okay”. It’s so weird not believing in a God but still feeling like the whole universe is up against you.