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My cousin just posted that it’s been 10 years since we lost her brother to suicide. He was a kind and quiet guy. I was young when he passed so I don’t remember much else about him but I know he was always kind to me and my brother.

Unfortunately my memory of him is tarnished by the trauma that came the following Wednesday after his passing. The first thing that always comes to mind when I think about him is 6th grade me standing next to a friend at church listening to the pastor’s sermon about how he went to hell. It wasn’t a general sermon. He explained to everyone (in youth group) that a young man (my cousin) had just committed suicide and how it was a sin, etc.

I was horrified he was talking about this without even worrying that one of his friends or family members were in the crowd. When we got back to my friends house, I ran directly to the bathroom and bawled until they called my mom and she arrived to pick me up. My friend had no idea.

These people don’t really care who hears what they preach, they only care that it scares you enough to abide by it.

1EarthLovingGal 7 Oct 7
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Holy shit, that's just fucked.
That must of been hard to deal with, sometimes scenes of our life seem so unkind

Garf Level 7 Oct 7, 2020
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Yes, they don't give a fig about anyone els, just look how the so called christians care about the fetus but not about the child.

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It is my opinion, from the past 69 years that life is not worth living if it is not examined once in a while. Life has been tough and at times I have had thoughts of killing myself. I figured out how I would do it and considered it for a time. I finally decided that I was much more interested in seeing what else life had to offer and so I changed almost everything I did and chose to be around different people. Over a short period of time I decided that life was more interesting, more interesting because I had a means to do things differently. I started to go out more, and I found that it was easy to meet people. Many of these people were not interesting, but some were. I had the ability to change where I was and what I was doing even though I did not move from the city of Portland. Some people do not see the chance to make changes in their life. Some people become trapped and see no way out, sometimes there is no way out and they decide to make the ultimate decision. Death is death, there is no hell or heaven to go to, even if there was which would you choose to go to? I came to find that life had much to offer, anyone considering suicide, I would hope the ability to see the means to find change.

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