YES! And it's taken me until fairly recently to realise it, but I suddenly woke up to how scathing, cynical and downright 'nasty' I was on the inside. Yet I'm well-loved amongst my friends and project a 'lovely guy' personality to all who know me.

What happened though, was that I then thought "oh crap, I hate myself" and set about a disastrously amateur attempt at getting 'better'. The result was that I fell into a much worse depression because of the disparity between what I expected of myself and what I was on the inside, AND the fact that I was beating back my core personality, expecting myself to be superhuman.

The point of telling you this: I came to the conclusion that it doesn't matter how much of a sick bunny I am at my core so long as my actions in the 'outside' world are positive.

Which they.... Weren't.... So what I did do was pick a handful of changes I could make to become a person I would be proud to be, and to focus on those. Chief amongst them were respect and compassion for others, and just simple honesty. Result so far... Much happier.

No doubt about it! I actually picture the devil on my shoulder talking in my ear like the cartoons sometimes. If people could read my mind my face would be bruised badly by now. My inner dialog is so vile it is not allowed to speak to anyone but me lol I used to argue with that voice but now I just laugh at it or even have a discussion with it. I actually think it is a right brain/left brain thing or Yin/Yang, emotion/intellect, masculine/feminine??? Imagine if we really had no filters.