There is so much to do and to learn. My daughter, my family, my dogs and my friends all help to make living worthwhile for me.

As I get older (BE QUIET, PLEASE!) I see how important public service is. I volunteer at three organizations...all very worthy.....and it keeps me going every day. It's also fun and I highly recommend it!

Her Royal Cuteness, small humans, amazing friends. and boatloads of caffeine.

What keeps me going is the hope and just plain curiousity. Am I going to wake up someday to learn I can be cured and never in pain again? Could it happen tomorrow? Am I going to fall in love with someone? I'm so curious.

Being there for friends and family, trying to leave the world a better place than I found it, pondering the mysteries of the Universe.

Just about anything and everything. No, I'm not kidding. Life is a rush.

I still ike to have a bit of fun, some enjoyment. I like my animals, gardens, fish, love living things around me. Have fun with the youngsters hat are always here. Occassionally, sadly more like rarely I like to have a few days away R&R with a friend, just for a break from the routine.

I read recently that you are not your trauma or past and imagine a life without identifying with that! I haven’t been able to put that into words for awhile yet it was a feeling...my urge to have complete autonomy of my life and bring the best to everyone and myself. To clarify not a controlling autonomy more so freedom!

What helps me keep going is a sense of the value of Life and the universe. I know that if I were to take my own life, I would lose everything. Life and living, even if it very painful at times, is valuable in and of itself.

Another thingsthat keeps me going is the people in my life who have helped me and given me support over the years. I would be much worse orf without them, and perhaps not even here now if not for them.

Curiosity. Having a more open heart. Being kind to others and myself. Trying to be a good dad. Holding myself accountable. A good whiskey (or two).

Sheer stubbornness.

I look into my mirror and thats my motivation. Where I come from and where I have been and what I have experienced has been because of that reflection. My motivation.

My kids. My dreams of being a filmmaker and my hopes that I won't have to be alone for the rest of my life. It can be a struggle sometimes. Being divorced and not getting to see my boys every day is a tough pill to swallow most days. But when I see how happy they are to see me and be with me and how smart and caring they are, it makes waking up in the morning worth it. Breathing is a lot easier when you know there's someone out there that truly loves you, and those boys love unconditionally. That is the power of having children of your own. No one will ever love you more than your own children. And I see it in my boys when we're together. The way they look up to me and always want to play with me and hug me when they see me. You can't get that from an adult you share no blood with. And it's because of that love that I'm still here.

Following my bliss and doing the things I love to do..bird photography, hiking, writing, designing and sewing clothes, swimming, riding motorbikes, training horses, playing music, doing art, making new inventions, teaching adorable Thai kids, etc.

And my daughter, of course. I have a son but he's off doing his thing, and I seldom hear from him.

My art, my dogs and fish.

Music and my life-long search for the perfect donut.

Helping others and hopes of a bright future,

I often ask myself that same question. Unfortunately, I haven't come up with a good answer.

Love for my children is what give me joy. It gives me a sense of purpose and fulfillment that I need.

Coffee& memes

Connections. Shallow, deep and everything in between. We may think we are but none of us are truly alone.

The other bastards that want to control me. James

I want to know what happens next.
Where is humanity going? Are we evolving? Ascending? Racing towards extinction? Is there a diaspora in our future? Or do we make way for the next species to evolve intelligence here on Earth?

Knowing that I can spend my time alivea king everyone else's time here more enjoyable.

Books, conversations, learning, education, debating and personal development.

I'm living day by day. Motivation and my medication keeps me going.