I just am. I'm not sure why. There are times when I like company, but many more when I don't. When I say "company", I don't mean a mass of people.

I'm not part of most peoples bullshit

I have my ideas of what my goals are and how I want to get there. I find it burdensome to have to minimize myself to not hurt feelings or what ever emotional reaction someone may have with me. If I am footing the bill, which has always been the case, I can't see a lot of reason to compromise my goals for someone else's feelings which I have done. That didnt make me feel good about myself and I feel bad when it seems someone has constant input into how they think I should be behaving. I am not inclined to hurt people so I keep to myself.

Social anxiety prevents me from letting people get close, I start looking for excuses not to hang around them.
I find most men to be obnoxious assholes with whom I have very little in common. I get along with women much better, I can share more with them.

Most people are morons with shit music taste

I've been through a lot and the only constant has been being pretty sure I'd make it past the shit for better or worse. I like people but have found they go away or in some cases are taken away, so that self reliance has served me well.

I'm a loner not necessarily by choice. I'm a giving person but I guess I come across as mean. I say what's on my mind and don't sugar coat. Some people don't like that. It's easier to not get involved in making friends so I won't, yet again, be pushed aside.

Small minded sheeple ...I get angered and frustrated by all the mermadons.

Because my mother was a stressed-out, messed up teenager when she had me and she had neither help nor any clue what she was doing.

As a result we didnt develop the bond of security that a mother/infant should establish and I have trust issues as a result. extreme trust issues. That is why.

Because I have mastered chaos and when ever I think I got something under control the ideas explore like a hydrogen bomb on steroids.

I do my best work, alone, where my mind is free from the clutter of other people's lives. We all need some alone time! And it's OK to take it