Does anyone else struggle with hating religion? It is a daily struggle, letting go of hate, as I understand its hypocritical. I consistsntly feel like the black sheep in my community, in my family and amongst my friends. I consistantly find myself hiding or diminishing my beliefs to make others feel better.
Depends on what you mean by "hate". I don't use that word in the casual way many people will say, "I hate broccoli". I find religion tiresome and annoying, but understand that eradicating it from society and culture is the work of centuries to come, and I'm going to die in a world full of presuppositionalist bullshit. So I don't waste energy on being all up in arms about it, anymore than I waste energy grousing about serialist modern classical music. It's easier to just not listen to it.
I do not hate religion, or religious people. One of my closest friends was an army pastor (catholic himself) and we have discussions on morality, ethics, cricket, rugby, horse riding, cooking - usual discourse between adults apart from sex (taboo for catholics).
The prescence of god at a battle? If soldiers were helped to get through it by believing in a god - I am fine with it. That both sides claim gods support is enough evidence for me to know he does not exist.
For me personally I find it close to the same feeling I have for my divorce, I'm comfortable with living alone, but wish I didn't have too. Its alot cheaper and easier to handle than divorce, but it follows you around and haunts you at moments of weakness.