I was born fourth generation Mormon. I served a mission for the church and spent years defending the faith.
I’m currently in a place where I’ve come to regret the time and energy I’ve spent doing so, after having delved deeper into what I once vehemently believed.
I’m now agnostic, bordering atheist.
I only call myself agnostic for the simple fact that I’m done with that whole religious search.
I now believe in science.
I was born into the Mormon church. However, I always doubted and stopped tryign to believe when I was around 16.
I am very resentful of all the time in my childhood tht was wasted via church activities.
I know exactly what you mean, my brother. Thank you.
Welcome to the Dark Side. In all seriousness, it's not easy to reject what you've been taught your whole life. Religion is great at making you feel bad for leaving it, especially since you're essentially abandoning your current support system. So it's important that you're finding yourself a new support system.
Since you've been defending the religion for a while, would you mind answering some questions I've had? I'm curious about the church as presented by Matt Stone and Trey Parker. Specifically, the way the religion is presented in one of their South Park episodes and also the Broadway musical, The Book of Mormon. Things such as the Garden of Eden really being in Jackson County, Missouri; Joseph Smith conveniently being unable to show the writings to anyone, and the church only recently accepting African-Americans as worthy of their church.
And while I feel these concepts are silly, I cannot throw stones since I grew up believing in a worldwide flood, the sun standing still, and burning bushes. So yeah, a lot of us grew up with stories that are actually quite hard to swallow.
While not directed to me, I can answer most questions you might have on the Mormon faith as well. Most of what you asked about is true. The Mormons do believe that the Garden of Eden is located in Missouri. The scriptures that the Mormons use have printed "testimonies" of witnesses who were allowed to see the original writings, known as the Gold Plates - but naturally none of them are alive to continue in such testimony - and some even left the church all together.
Mormons started allowing African Americans to hold the priesthood in 1978, 40 years ago this June.
Glad you made it out. That must have been hard when you'd been so entrenched. Good for you!
I think we all regret things in the past or at least wish we’d played it differently. All we can do is move on and take any positives, no matter how small, and move forward.
It’s not where you start, it’s where you finish that matters.
PS. Hope you’ve seen ‘The Book of Mormon’ musical
Welcome & congrats on making the journey. It can be a tough one. One good thing, you don't have to 'believe' in science. It can be proven & demonstrated, so no faith required! & it keeps filling in those "gaps"! Glad you made it here!
Thank you. This is encouraging bb
Kudos to you! Try not to waste time regretting past mistakes. We all spend time doing things that we later regret. Just move forward, focus on your future, and be the best version of you!
You and I have a lot of similiarities in our background, based on this post. I too, regret the time I now feel was spent deceiving others to believe a certain way - a way which meant nothing more to me than "It's what mom & dad said to do".