Sorry for your loss. The way coke is illegally processed is really nasty. They use gasoline, hydochloric acid, and tones of other crap I want nowhere near my body. I do not sniff the coke I only smoke sinsemellia.

My father died of a coke overdose. Didnt even know he was a user and I was the only one that didnt know.

When I was six I had a friend who was both mute and deaf. I was the only kid in the class who learned sign language to talk to him. One day he didn't come to class. So I thought he was sick. One day turned to one week, then one month. Then I got an invitation to a funeral... THAT'S when I learned he had died. No one said anything to me earlier, my parents and I learned when we got the letter. The whole time I was just being told he was sick in the hospital... I was so sad, and angry, and confused... I didn't understand how he was gone. They said he was sick and was going to come back, but he didn't... I never knew he was sick... I was just told he was 'different' from other kids. I wish they would have told me he was sick, that he had passed... I wished they didn't hide it from me. I had never cried so much as I had at his funeral. I had never known until then that he was sick, that he would die soon. I kept thinking of all the things I could of done with Matthew(that was his name), that maybe I could of helped him... I don't remember how to use sign language anymore, and somehow that makes me sad to this day... After he passed, I had no one to use it with and his helpers didn't use it with me... so now I don't remember it... I feel like I lost something from that...
I don't know if this helped in any way. But I just wanted to share a story of when I lost a friend. I hope it helps you with your grief.