I feel this way after I was told a heartbreaking lie last month by a man friend. The hurt that you feel when being lied to, is it devastating to you?
My ex told me (tells me!) he loves me, but he also says (said for years) everything is all my fault and I'm evil. Lies hurt and from a loved one cause serious misgivings about my own judgment, as I'm not capable of knowing even my own feelings-according to him. 18 years of that building up in my head. I'm out and doing very well. But trusting my heart to someone will take time, even if I find someone worth trusting.
Being a healthy skeptic the terms love, religion, political promises, insurance premiums, stock reports, medical advice from a Doctor and not a Nurse. I'm not married or ever have been, am an Independent by Political Affiliation. The Legal System in this Country is becoming more and more psychotic each and every day. Agnostics are very skeptic people which is why we are on this website. I was able to see that the light at the end of the tunnel was not a beacon of light.
It's a family thing for me. I might forgive, but I don't forget, and because of that, a lot of conversations are directed around and about me, but rarely to me. If I call anyone on it, I'm accused of being overly sensitive.