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For me this is depression. I do the same thing and beat myself up for it. I’m always wondering if I’m just lazy or I’m sinking into depression. I’m a strong believer that if your house is full of clutter and other stuff it reflects what’s going on mentally. If you think you’re lazy there’s probably more going on.

I don't know...but I'm wondering if we become room mates...will we inspire each other to activity?

Well, I suspect the answer you are looking for is the latter - it's not part of your makeup. I also think that is true. If you are unmedicated and not in therapy, try that. But hey, you're in your late 50's, you are unlikely to suddenly become a different person.

I wish I could be like you but I'm too driven. It's how I am but I am getting closer...

Maybe step back and look at the big picture. do you want to regret what you could of done?

I don't know what to tell you. The say just do it. I have always been one that jumps in and give it the experienced/educated try.

So I used to be an extremely lazy person. I half assed everything and watched TV when I didn't absolutely have to do something. I struggled to clean, pay bills, and myriad other things we are supposed to do as adults. The key for me was to learn how to enjoy doing those things.
For cleaning, I put on music that gets me moving, or I'll listen to a podcast while I do it. Working out is all about feeling your body. I think the best way to do it is to just give yourself an hour or so a day to notice what's going on in your body. You don't have to go ham to get fit. Just start off with whatever is comfortable and try to engage muscles you aren't used to engaging with increasing intensity based on what's comfortable. You will eventually get stronger, and especially pay attention to joints and sockets. Dieting helps, but I understand why this is hard to do. I did not grow up liking sweets or pop, and my eating was more for anxiety reasons than flavor, so I don't mind what I eat, and I have a pretty strict diet. But I think everyone should research to take the time to find out what to eat, and for me, making it easy and simple ensures that I will do it consistently. I don't make the meals too complex, and I know exactly what I'm buying when I go to the store.

I've also learned that no one is truly lazy or doesn't have drive. I finally stopped feeling bad about doing things I wasn't necessarily compelled by society to do, like watch videos on and read about as many topics as I can. I've invested a lot of time and money into my hobbies. I am still looking to invest even more time into my work, because while I've gotten better, it still remains that I am a much better consumer than producer, and the only thing I can do there is to just stay off of media sites, but I'm only currently trying to retrain my brain to do this. For this, a zero tolerance policy has worked best.

Some meds will sap your drive, I'm always asked how I feel when I go to the V.A. for my psychologist or medical.
If you are seeing a psych doc perhaps tell them about the lack of drive.
If not meds then try things you might be interested in, take small steps and feel it out. I took a couple of drawing classes in college and discovered I had a talent for sketching. I also tried my hand at fly fishing with an inexpensive rod and reel, loved it and upgraded my equipment.
In both these examples I had a small desire to try it and found skills I didn't know I had.

I don't know, partner. You and I are at opposite ends of the spectrum.

Little steps...
For years I kept telling myself that I wanted to play music. I got a guitar but i didn't really practice, just every now and then. I kept giving myself targets but never achieving them and then giving myself a bit of a hard time over my failure....
Now it's many, many years later and I do play quite a few instruments. Some better than others i practice almost everyday and have done for years. But I have real incentives now. I play in a couple of bands, run a session and my social life pretty much revolves around playing music at events and festivals. So I enjoy practice and know that I'll get rewards from it.
Sure it would benefit you to exercise for example, but if that excersise is not fun or enjoyable, it's unlikely to happen. If you like Toastmasters (i don't actually know what that is ) then go for it. Find some other people that like that stuff and those endorphins will start to kick in.
Reward yourself. Best motivator I know

Do you want to?
Why do you need to be more driven?
If you are content, stay content.
I totally lack any ambition, I am not greedy,
I just do what I enjoy doing as far as possible.
I just prefer being outdoors and can't stand watching TV.

If it’s severe, just getting through the day is adventure enough… I was married for a long (long) time to ..your condition. It was up to ‘me,’ the mate, to initiate (all) adventure. Wore me out, too.

If you’re not drug into adventure against your will, you’re likely too averse to seek it. Volunteering for adventure is against your nature. I suspect you’ve worked your life toward not being ‘forced’ into new situations… It’s a definite effort for a mate, so I hate to advise you to find someone adventurous ..then pretend it’s something you’ve always wanted to do ..that’s how I was hooked.

Dang ... Drugs? Boredom usually brings me out, though it might sound quite cozy to you Yah, drugs, and a network of wild friends ...sorry ~

Stop looking for something that isn't there or never will be. James Dickey used the great phrase "When life gets boring, go out and take a chance" Pack a bag to no where if you have some time-like two weeks or more to a place you have never been or would have wanted to visit. Your closed in and need to reach the beyond your immediate arena and meet others whom you do not know or have ever met.

The secret of life is enjoying the passage of time. Ride along if you don't want to drive.

This is how my depression manifests, a nearly paralyzing lack of desire (definitely not a "sadness" ).

All I can do is just force myself to keep moving. I don't know what to say if it was like that all the time.

You care more about Toastmasters and your collection than advancing at work. What's wrong with that? Most people are looking forward to retirement not advancing at work.

Maybe set a goal and give yourself a reward after completing various items on your "should do" task list? There will be natural positive consequences for completing those goals or tasks, but sometimes we need a little added incentive.

Maybe choose not to allow yourself on social media until you complete one task on your list each day.... Or buy yourselve a new shirt or outfit that you won't wear until you reach a particular goal. Or treat yourself to a movie or dinner out, and various other rewards for yourself.

It takes willpower not to cheat on whatever goal/reward you choose, but it's one way to create motivation. These are tricks I use to help myself, when I find myself not meeting my own expectations of how I should be living my life.

I have the same problem. I think mine comes partly from dystemia, but also partly from not being competitive. I've never been into status, power, money or acquiring material possessions. However, would be good to keep my apartment and car cleaner, and keep up more with research in my vocational field

I have no clue. I believe it's the early worm that gets eaten by the bird.