Myself. As an example I want to write a book but as much studying with how-to books and voracious reading I realized I was putting off the writing. The idea stays in my head. But in the past week I’ve realized if I do finish a piece it would expose who I am and that scares the shit out of me. I could make a fool out of myself. I’m always questioning myself.
Dissociation and confusion of my general identity. I’d say now tho is letting go of my expectations of myself and my life I feel happier in the moment
Money. I don't need a lot, just more than what I have. Scaping by here.
My son not being able to be here anymore, and my having to be.
The person that people think I am, and the fear of shattering that illusion.
Within myself, there's my ADD, which makes it difficult for me to see projects through to completion. In the world, there's a lack of resonance due (I believe) to generally lower intelligence, which makes it difficult for me to find an audience for my art.
Lack of support, family , professional of that sort.
Men. I have a bad habit of putting their needs above mine, but getting divorced and working on myself (with the help of my amazing therapist) has helped me remember who I am, and I wouldn't change a thing. I'm pretty thrilled that I can see and acknowledge red flags these days, and I can honestly say that I have the self-confidence to walk away when it's warranted.
Also, time. I have a love-hate relationship with my schedule, and while it keeps me financially stable, it's hard to reconcile that with my need for down time, social time, volunteer time, etc.
What's holding me back? Me getting on the way of myself.