Yes... but not my thing luckly

in the same boay currently :/

I was when I lived with my parents. Once I moved out and weathered a breakdown I developed thanatophobia somewhere along the line and now completely avoid any suicidal ideation.

Many times. I do not fear death at all but welcome it. After 20+ surgeries, mostly on my feet and lower back, in pain all day, can't work, Fed's denying my SSD....I am soooooo ready for this nightmare to end. I have traveled this world many times, did so many things...I welcome the long slumber. My energy will return back to the great collective, my body to science, then to the earth, it's all good.

I think to some degree it's normal to feel like ending it. When you become obsessed with it, feel useless, and begin to rationalize that it would be best for everyone; is when you desperately need to seek help.

For anyone there: [suicidepreventionlifeline.org]

Pfft. It's almost a daily thing. Once you're dead nothing matters. I'm too lazy and uninterested ti do anything.

When I was young and my stepfather would beat the shit out of me.

In my teens I was physically and emotionally abused by my parents. Things were really bad. I left home in high school before I hurt myself.

I attempted it 3x all three times i did in fact die but was brought back e everytime

YES, but im glad it didnt work, its the people that you leave behind that suffer more. . Perhaps you could start up a disscussion group ?

Yes. I even attempted suicide once. That emotional wound has left an indelible mark.

I tried to kill myself often growing up. One day I stopped wanting to die. Then I once found out there is something much worse than being suicidal and that's not feeling anything at all. Somehow I've never been suicidal at all, and I want to live. I'm 10 years free of any suicidal ideation, but it's hard for me, because I know it doesn't just cure itself. It's a lifetime affliction. It will come back someday. I just try very hard to make safety measures for when it does. I have a lot of survivors guilt, I guess. When someone commits suicide it hurts and scares me a lot because I'm not stronger than them so why am I okay now?

For those of you that said "Yes" do you speak to a professional counselor at all or consult a psychiatrist? You need to.

If not by accident, massive heart attack, stroke,etc... My death will be at a time of my choice and by my hand.

I'm not trying to be condesending but I would seek some help for that. At least make sure that you've talked with someone professional about it. These thoughts alone are signs of depression. There is medication which can help substantially.

I’m suspicious of people who haven’t.

Yep.

yes

I've been suicidal off and on since I was in my teens. After two/three suicide attempts I got to where I learned to deal with the feelings.

Yeah, it’s easy to get tripped up by those thoughts. I know that from ongoing personal experience. I hate to sound all cliche but I kind of think this usually holds true for me in those times "When you feel you can take no more, try giving a little". It’s not one size fits all but I’ve found it to help when depression sinks it’s claws in me.

Suicidal ideation is one of my diagnoses. It's treated at this time successfully. So yes, shit happens

Most of my years growing up I felt like that. I had really bad depression as a young adult. My mom died when I was 18, and I had to grow up really fast. I had been a cutter since I was 11-years-old. I started cutting more and more when my mom passed away. I now live with my arms scarred up really bad. It's embarrassing most days to wear short-sleeved shirts. At work I have to, or I will be too hot with a long-sleeved shirt on. I finally put the knife down for good 4 years ago. I was in and out of psych wards since I was 19-28- years-old. My 2 year mark was on my birthday of this year in February. I never want to get that depressed again, that I need a hospital to keep me safe from my irrational actions. I used to be so bored in my younger years, I over-thought and then made myself depressed. I have a job now and I'm never bored. When I got bored, I got sad and depressed. I have a job for a lot of reasons. So I can stay out of the hospital, help out the community, show people I'm not useless in life, for spending money, to make me feel good about something in my life, and for the social skills. Before, I had all the wrong friends. People who didn't care about me and used me. Who kicked me when I was down. People who enabled me by giving me glass pieces to use on my arms. I don't know them anymore. I have come a long ways in 2 years. I smartened up too. Working is what is keeping me alive. That is why I am grateful for my job, and that is why I am good at it. I need it to keep me alive. I wake up every morning and know that I have responsibilities and I won't ever be a let down to anyone anymore. My aunt is so proud of me. I am too.

Yes. Those were my "dark nights of the soul". It didn't get better until I healed from the childhood and adult trauma and kept toxic people away from me and I haven't had a relapse in about 5 years now.

I've felt that way many times over the years, but usually it's temporary and more feelings of hopelessness, futility and a desire to escape the pain. Once, I did actually attempt suicide many years ago. I haven't made an attempt since then, although I still momentarily think about it fairly often. Basically, I don't want to give up the time I have left.

Songs about death have always cheered me up.
Bo Burnham - Kill Yourself

The first time I tried to commit suicide, I was 14. Took a bottle of pills out the medicine cabinet and downed the contents. I got sick as hell, and the "adults" present called it the stomach flu. They didn't have a clue. By the time I was 23, I'd tried 4 more times. I clearly sucked at it, and wasn't smart enough to do anything that actually worked. In the mid-80s, I learned how to be a crisis intervention counselor. Working on a crisis-hotline made me grow the hell up and gave me incredible perspective. Oh, and the years of therapy helped a little, too. It took a minute, but I realized that suicide is a permanent solution to what is usually always a temporary situation.
In my dotage, I have learned to be a lot more "zen" regarding my own life. Okay, zen is probably too generous a word. I just give zero fucks about most of the stuff which used to tie me up in knots. I quit being so bloody emotional about most things. If I can't do anything about it, I'm not going to spend much time fretting over it.