Ten years ago today my life changed in a way I could have never imagined. Today I remember my beloved, Karl Albert Wright, he was my everything through those thirty-eight years and one month. Through his feminist love, I pushed the envelope, I accomplished things that are amazing to me now. Love really does make you strong, and it gave me a feeling I could do anything, and I did.
He was my everything, that sounds so easy, so matter of fact, that the true reality of what that truly means is missing. For me it means, l lost myself when Karl died, my art, my motivation, my desire to accomplish, some of my family, my faith, my Ojibway culture and friends.
Please don’t give me solutions, because I have done and tried them all, and still can’t seem to find myself. 
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Feel free to reply to any comment by clicking the "Reply" button.I was denied my every Cherokee word 38 years by my racist assimilationist father leaving only hunting fishing planting healing in wasichu words ..... the great gift of culture I could only now learn as an aging elder ....but Feminist Atheism IS THE HUMAN BIRTHRIGHT freedom from brutal beliefs forced by bad boys ....all truth comes from life giving Woman by deed or seed..... our science of spirit water living soil clean air pure food
Larry68Feminist
Level 7
Feb 8, 2021
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I understand. My husband of 31 years passed away last year of cancer. We were inseparable and loved being together. I'm just barely starting to feel less like I've lost a vital organ. Grief is a journey that has no right or wrong directions IMO. For me, it comes in waves, ebbs and flows... sometimes it hits out of the blue... unexpectedly. Life can be overwhelming. Gentle hugs to you.
Sonja44
Level 7
Aug 6, 2020
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I feel your pain;my longtime girlfriend passed in Aug. 2018. My life has not been the same as I still struggle to regain my emotional equilibrium, and sense of myself.I hope you can find peace in life,and some contentment if not happiness.
WayneDalton
Level 8
Aug 1, 2020
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It has been just over two years since I lost my darling Richard. We had 15 great years together. I have felt so empty inside since his passing. This group and the site in general have helped me get through these two years. I’m grateful for the kindness of strangers here, and many have become friends to me. sending you a hug.
Redheadedgammy
Level 9
Aug 1, 2020
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I can't imagine what you're going through right now.. But 38 years with someone who loved you completely? Oh my.. That's wonderful.. No one lives forever.. Honor his memory and be the best you.. 
Cutiebeauty
Level 9
Aug 1, 2020
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I know it might sound trite - but please try to keep the memories of those 38 years you spent together foremost in your mind. There are sooooo many people who never get even close to that.... No one knows if the future holds joy or happiness for you -- or for any of us -- but I think your husband would have wanted you to honor his memory by living your best life - however possible.
Everyone who has lost a loved one shares in your loss.....
Lavergne
Level 8
Aug 1, 2020
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