You’re not alone.. Many in the early ‘movement’ appeared as such. Analytical introverts too righteous to swallow religion. I ended up a friend to many. What I’d suggest is do what you do do well, and if any of those talents can be applied to furthering the rights of Atheists, do that, too

You are not the only one. Most people do have social anxiety, you can get professional help if you want.

Hi, Timmy, and welcome to the website,

Many creative, high IQ people have various mental illness and anxiety issues, as it's often associated with high IQ DNA.

As for anxiety, you could try inexpensive, natural CBD oil.

"A 2010 study found that cannabidiol (CBD oil) could reduce symptoms of social anxiety in people with social anxiety disorder (SAD). Brain scans of participants revealed changes in blood flow to the regions of the brain linked to feelings of anxiety.

In this study, cannabidiol not only made participants feel better but also changed the way their brains responded to anxiety.

A 2011 study also found that cannabidiol could reduce social anxiety. For that study, researchers looked specifically at cannabidiol to treat anxiety associated with public speaking.

A 2015 analysis of previous studies concluded that CBD oil is a promising treatment for numerous forms of anxiety, including social anxiety disorder, panic disorder, obsessive-compulsive disorder, generalized anxiety disorder, and post-traumatic stress disorder."

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By the way, this website has a bit of a learning curve so here is some information that might be helpful for dating here.

New members are encouraged to earn website points, and help other members get to know them better, by writing an informational profile that includes their hobbies and interests, and answering all the profile questions, since that's the first place many people look when they see a new member.

The website uses profile algorithms to find member matches, so the more details one includes, the better the match.

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People make comments and write their own posts to earn more points and privileges; for instance, at level two someone can private email people. There are different perks with each level, and when you reach level eight you get an agnostic T-shirt.

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Or click on the "About" button at the top of the page to find links to FAQ or the website tutorial.
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Do you want to do something about your social anxiety problems? I have some too. What I sometimes do, instead of actually joining a group (for example, senior karaoke), I go there and watch. I get to know some of the people, even if only a wave and a hello. Sometimes it becomes easier; sometimes I just leave. Somehow I feel like I am at least trying to do something positive. (I hope this helps.)

Weird eh?

Were I to be somehow magically transported back to the 11th century, I'd be quiet about my agnosticsm too... and probably be REALLY weird about interacting with people.

You say "weird." I say "smart."