I am new here, and having a look around. So thankful that a forum like this exists. A place to to talk, vent, ask for advice etc. from others in similar predicaments. I often wonder about those that have had to endure this hellish experience all alone without even an outlet such as this. I have found 'talking' to be one of my best therapies. But it is hard to find someone who will listen. I have always preferred REAL talk..about things that matter, rather than frivolous nonsense...which is so common in religious circles. Even when I was one of them, I often thought 'and why aren't we talking about the lord, the bible etc...".. I was very religious. I trusted it with ALL my heart, soul, mind, and strength...for 43 years. I am convinced that those who trust the most...are hurt the most. I indoctrinated my 6 children VERY well. My youngest was 10 when I stopped going to church last December...after ceasing to believe the bible in Feb 2017, and realizing my religion was fake in April of the same year. My oldest would have been 33 last month. He died at the too young age of 25. I blame my religion. Very long, sad story for another day. I am looking forward to many conversations here. I am a busy mom so I will be hit or miss,.but will try to check in most days. Thanks for listening.