The bottom line for me becoming an atheist is the feeling of freedom.
I no longer have to live up to the expectations of others.
I never have to worry about sins, damnations and hell. Or worry anout what the neighnors think. No fears either except spiders and heights.
No superstitions, no ghosts, no hauntings, no supernatural things or myths either.
I was pressured into going to confession by my step-father when a child. At 15, i rebelled. I told step daddy "what the hell do priests know about living? They live in the rectory rent free, have cooks to cook and housekeeper to clean the house and their dirty laundry. No kids to care for. Women all around to take care of them. Priests are lazy good for nothings. Why should i care what they say? The only thing fun about confession is meeting up with my best friends, making up sins so we would have to say so many hail marys and the lords prayer on the rosary. The fun part was the contest to see who could finish the rosary the fastest." He stopped taking us because we had too much fun.
I can still run thru the rosary in seconds.
I have one creed only. Treat others as you would like to be treated. Thst includes animals.
Being an athiest is liberating!
Just spiders and heights? What about poisonous snakes? Lions, tigers and bears?!? Alligators? Gila monsters? Poison Ivy? I can thinks of DOZENS of things!
My (worthless) advice though: go the extra mile and be a full-blown agnostic! It won't TOTALLY take care of the fear of death--you'll still have that queasy, nagging uncertainty--but at least you won't KNOW you'll go 'poof!' someday, when you least expect it...there you are walking down the street and a meteorite hits you in the head! Gone!
Hey, it happens.
Like me, you'll wonder about it a lot...and just about everything else. A lot.
I kind of envy atheist their absolute conviction. It must be nice to KNOW there's no afterlife (no 'god' required, so atheism is about more than 'god.' It's about not having fun.)
Agnostic uncertainty IS unsettling. Seems kinda wimpy, actually. But it makes sense, damn it all to...the moon!
It's easier, too. Saying, "I don't know" makes life more peaceful. Invites a discussion during which you can say you don't know as often as you like! Becomes a habit. Soon, when your girlfriend asks you which restaurant you want to go to...you won't know! TV program? No idea! And so on. Sure, she'll think you've lost it. You of course won't know.
Anyway, I guess being an Agnostic Atheist would cover it, but unfortunately the two words contradict each other. Totally incompatible (I hope no agnostic atheists are reading this).
See, I just watch superhero movies to satiate the "god gene" some people insist we have.
As for 'god?' Don't worry about it! (Doesn't sound like you do. I don't.)
Science will figure it out someday. I really believe that. Maybe.
In the meantime, revel in the knowledge that of all the (unfortunately) billions of people on this planet, only the insane are not, down deep inside, agnostic. Yes, you too.I think.
Glad you avoided rapist priests....our Atheism is an end to lies forced upon children.....my feeling of freedom came when I took the last step out of the closet resolved to END PASSING pretending to be xian around xians....yeah I stopped getting xmas presents from my xian relatives but I gifted their birthdays
I have effectively removed the procedure for doing a rosary completely out
of my memory.
I'm pretty sure the priests who heard confession knew I was an atheist before
any member of my family, all of whom I had to tell.
I remember, around the age of 12, telling one of the priests straight-up that I wasn't going to do my "penance".
He told me I wouldn't be able to receive communion at mass until I did.
Just to see what he'd do, I went up for communion the following Sunday, and
he gave it to me anyway.
Further solidified my position that the priests didn't really care about the "rules".