If your not attracted to someone, it's that simple, no explanation required.

If you are attracted to him but won't date do to "lack of interest"... You might have a problem.

Hope I'm being fair.

Oh hell I hope not.

I think so. Whenever you close a race out of the competition ther seems to almost be a fetishist element to it.

I do not think you are using race as a criteria for any of what you say, but the character of the individual and that is absolutely the criteria that EVERYONE should use in all relationships and associations.
To paraphrase a famous American, you are not judging anyone by the color of their skin but by the content of their character.

I stepped out of line when I dated a black lady 2 years ago. Color doesn't mean anything to me, and never will. It's sad that some families are abusive and they don't try to change the situation. That makes me love the survivor even more.

Wow, rough life, kid. Hang in there!

Date who you want, however, remain open to Black men, too. You have experienced horrible things. Try not to stereotype, though. The world is full of wonderful black men, too.

There is nothing wrong with the way you feel but it would be wise to understand why you have those feelings. It reads like you have. I'm reminded you only have one life so you may as well live it to it's fullest. BTW, yes Virginia, we are idiots.

I have seen white women on dating sites say they are only interested in dating black men or only looking to date other women. It’s really no different than wanting to date thin women or full bodied women, short or tall women. Most people have a phisical preference they gravitate to, even if it isn’t put in stone. Go for what makes you feel comfortable and what you want. I did note that you mentioned several times having a mental illness. I hope it is not related to the assaults and regardless of why, that you are getting help with it. There is non religious support groups and therapists out there, seek them out.

I don't think it is racist. You like who you like, and you're attracted to who you are attracted to.

Love is love. It is color blind. Love well.

I don't think liking a particular race is any more racist than liking a particular gender is sexist.
I'm intrigued how you feel about mixed race people though. If people are attracted to different races then that will create more mixed race people, but if no one is particularly into mixed race people that would be sad.

My Dear, Date whoever you want. I will always support you on that. I live in South Africa and where is many a black lady that would not be seen dead with a black man. Here as in religion men are head of the house, and they try to enforce it at every turn, especially sexually. Go in peace beautiful lady !