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As a young catholic school girl, I tried so hard to believe. I printed to believe. I memorized all the songs in Latin and to this day “Ave Marie” chokes me up.
Eventually, when I was an adult, I started questioning why it was so hard for me to kneel down and worship another being.
It took years but I finally came to my own understanding that it’s all man made malarkey designed to control the masses.

Lightupmylife 7 May 24
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Yep...many of us here believed what we were taught as children. Religion is but one of many things we later learned is just made up to placate the masses. It works...

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Terrific!
You might enjoy hearing Julia Sweeney, formerly of SNL fame. You can find her on youtube, even Tedx talk, I believe, talking about her own path to atheism out of devout churchgirl upbringing. She is pretty entertaining with it, too.

I love that talk. It's titled "Letting Go Of God".

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I felt the very same way as a young Catholic boy. I even attend the minor seminary for a year. Praying was always a struggle; what I prayed about seemed insignificant compared to the other things "God" had to handle.I envied the girls/friends ho had no doubts while there always was that lingering doubt that never was explained away and lingered. I could not understand a God that would condemn a Gandhi, my Jewish friends and others to damnation because they were not Catholic. Why would God want a person to live in an intolerable marriage. How could a god allow the Holocaust and exactly what was God's plan? How could he create LGBTQ's people (made in the image and likeness of God like all of mankind) and forbid them to love and marry? The fear of not being 'good enough' for the maker. I have no hatred towards the church, and to be honest, I was fortunate to know many kind nuns and devoted priests (that seems like an oxymoron now). I could never pray; it was always a struggle that I could not do.I realize that the smell of beeswax candles, the rituals and liturgy,processing in and out, the magic of Midnight mass was very Comforting but was great theater. Once I accepted and acknowledged that the Christian religion especially, was man made and that this life is all we have (to make the most of), it was as if a great burden was lifted from my shoulders.

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I questioned the indoctrination fairly early. When I was in 6th grade, a crabby nun at the Catholic school I attended asked what the bread and wine were at communion time, and I answered that they symbolized Jesus. She screamed that they were Jesus, not just a symbol. Even my pre-teenage brain couldn't stretch to anything beyond symbolism. It was a crystalizing moment for me about how silly the whole belief system was. I continued to feel bad about myself through high school, because my parents insisted on church attendance and parochial shcool, and I really did fervently try to believe like others appeared to, but I could never do it. So glad I quickly came to my senses in my early 20s and gave up trying to pretend that religion was meaningful. Thanks so much for sharing the Bergson quote!

I mentioned something about transubstantiation once to my Catholic wife, and she'd never heard of it, or if she had, she'd blocked it from her memory. When I told her what it was, she didn't believe it was really a part of Catholic doctrine. She had to look it up.

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Be thankful that you are free today. Before I came out atheist I wanted "Amazing Grace" played on bagpipes at my funeral. Today that doesn't seem too likely and I'm going to be cremated. My indoctrination has worn off.

As a child I thought the song was about a woman named Grace, I still like the song and the sentiment behind it in that there is a way out of all of the trials of life and this amazing woman named Grace ( inner grace, finding your own way with support from friends and family) can help you.

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Also brought up Catholic in a large family (6 siblings) also in Texass. However, our was a benign indoctrination and aside from attending parochial school there was little pressure and very few problems. It took years for most of us to let go and out of the 7 all but one are atheists. A lot of time it depends on one's experiences that determine their history.

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I do love the AVA MARIA song

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Well Henry you got it wrong about many of us Atheists .....when I was 5 days old religion AMPUTATED my 4 square inches of healthy vital prepuce penis flesh .... a catholic osteopath butchered me ....he did not graft a single word into my brain or my parents protestant brains.....when I heard radio jockeys joking Santa Claus was radar reported on NORADCOM with his tiny reindeer I concluded all the imaginary beings teeth fairies boy easter bunnies laying candy eggs on dogshit lawns and alleged vaginal virgins birthing baby gawds in creche crap all over town I CONCLUDED it is all a big cruel joke upon us kids

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You sound like someone who lost their only friend.
I get choked up every time I hear (or sing myself) We Shall Overcome
No god required.

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Marx's full quote expressed it best: [en.wikipedia.org]

Great quote. Thank you very much.

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Good song for this post:

I also like his song. "She,s got a way about her" This song made me feel welled up inside as I thought about the lady that I had just met and how she made me feel about her. She was amazing and understanding. I learned a lot about myself with her comments about how I was living my life at that time. I feel that I am a better man today because I listened and accepted her views.

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I am also choked up by art of all types, not just religious but also secular, that's a sign that all humans appreciate beauty. Has nothing to do with religion.

All art is about religion, and art with a capital 'A' is a religion.

@Fernapple all art is about religion? Where do you get this from? Movies, Music, Architecture, Paintings, Sculptures are all art, some are religious most are not, I beg to differ.

@Mofo1953 Yes all art is about religion, because if you want to look at a leaf you go out into the garden and look at a leaf. However if you look at a painting of a leaf you are looking, to a degree at what the artist wants you to think a leaf is, and that is both subjective and a distortion of reality, in which the artist attempts to move you towards their agenda, which is a religious manipulation of your thought, and the better the art the more powerful it is.

Yes I could find lots of counter arguments to this too. Don't take it too seriously. But the second part yes, art with a capital certainly is a religion.

@Fernapple sorry, your explanation eludes any logic because you are repeating what you said without any evidence to support this opinion.

@Fernapple Do you mean Illusion with a capital I? If you ask me it is 'artistic' in the same way a desert mirage is an oasis.

@Mofo1953 First you need to define art. Which I would define as the use of technology to manipulate other peoples minds. As such Art is the parent of all culture and therefore the grandparent of all sub-cultures including religion. Indeed it would be quite appropriate to define religion as one of the art forms.

@Mofo1953, @Storm1752 No art with a capital 'A', refering to the idea of high art. Meaning that certain crafts, have a 'spiritual' (meaningless word) values, in that they can, without any evidence, be set aside from what are called crafts or technologies. Based on the idea that they have a higher worth, even though that the is no evidence for that higher worth, any more than there is evidence for the equally nebulus 'spirituality'.

@Fernapple this is the definition of art (Webster):

noun

  1. the expression or application of human creative skill and imagination, typically in a visual form such as painting or sculpture, producing works to be appreciated primarily for their beauty or emotional power.
    "the art of the Renaissance"
    Similar:
    fine art
    artwork
    creative activity
  2. the various branches of creative activity, such as painting, music, literature, and dance.
    "the visual arts"

Your definition is irrelevant because it is just your opinion and it holds no logic.

@Fernapple Again, your personal definition of what you think art is, is of total and absolute irrelevance because it has no basis in logic, common sense or even any facts or evidence behind it, now don't bother me insisting in your own bullshit that only you believe.

@Fernapple Not all art is about religion.

@Mofo1953 Art is an idea so nebulus and vague that it is quite capable of being defined in many different ways, all of which may be true. Certainly Websters difinition, while perfectly true is far too short to even begin to express all that art is. My point is to show the very real dangers of art to those who approach it without showing caution, as such I think that it is very valid, and I am sorry that you can not see that. But then to me that is only confirming evidence, since it is exactly the sort of blindness that those deeply lost in religious indovctrination always exhibit.

Ask yourself. If art is not a religion then why does the term "artistic truth" exist?

@extantpoet Some of it is, but I am not merely say that art is about religion, I am also saying that art, at least high art, is a religion, perhaps with many of the vices that come with that.

@Fernapple you're insisting in a moot point that only you believe. Truth has nothing to do with religion, just with not lying, expressing facts. Give it up already. The point you are trying to make is by itself idiotic and miopic, has no basis in logic or common sense. I'm sure you believe it, but aside from you nobody else does. It is your opinion, you are entitled to give it, but it's not more than that, an illogical, misguided personal opinion.

@Mofo1953 What has truth got to do with it ? The talk was about art.

@Fernapple you can't even remember what you posted. Amazing. You said this "why does the term "artistic truth" exist?" Quit already dumbass, nobody advocates what you stupidly continue to hold as reality because it only lives in your deranged head.

@Mofo1953 Thank you for the ad populum, it would be lovely to think that I was an original, but sadly it is not the case, the idea is not mine but a traditional one, long championed in art philosophy, especially by people like Kahlil Gibran and Ernst Gombrich who famously said. "There really is no such thing as Art. There are only artists." And. "The first thing you have to remember about art is that no such thing exists."

@Fernapple they never said art is religion like you stupidly try to continue to defend.

@Mofo1953 Yes they did. Because if art is not existent as a material measurable entity, then belief in it must depend upon faith.

@Fernapple that is a preposterous and false inference. You are obsessed with this idiotic idea that art is religion that you definitely can't be objective.

@Fernapple Aaah, no. Wrong. But nice, lengthy, wordy try. C+

@Fernapple 🤣

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Some of us seem to be born with a more enquiring and sceptical nature than others and no matter how much we may be told something is true, unless we can prove to ourselves that it is, we will never accept it. This is such a good quote by Bergson.

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Well put! Thank you for this post. As a lifelong chorister, I must admit that some of the most gorgeous music ever written was to the text of "Ave Maria." Whether listening to a professional chorus or a soloist such as Andrea Bocelli, the various settings of the Ave Maria by a handful of composers from Bach to Biebl never fail to elicit emotion, no matter my unbelief. I am particularly fond of Voces8's rendition of Franz Biebl's Ave Maria.

That is because it’s the music not the libretto that is beautiful....music is manmade, even when it’s dedicated to god, the words are also manmade but less important than the notes. As a classical singer I have sung all of the well known religious pieces and enjoy them immensely...no problem to me that they are dedicated to the glory of god. The words only have any meaning if you believe them.

@Marionville - Many of us with nonprofessional experiences singing in choirs never knew the meaning of the words sung. The emotion from the experience is just as real.

My parents participated in a Mozart Festival were they lived in California during the 1980's. One year, I was visiting when the festival was going on and I attended a dinner and awards given out for youth musicians who participated in a competition as part of the festival. Part of the entertainment for the evening included a piece of music sung in German by a small choir. It was a beautiful piece of music just as would be expected from Mozart. After the song was completed, the translation was provided for the song. It was filled with bawdy criticism and insults of one of Mozart's rivals from his day. Apparently, Mozart was known for producing bits of music like this disparaging others in this way. The music was still beautiful just as would be expected from Mozart.

@Marionville Some of the music I listen to has ungrammatical stream of consciousness type lyrics. They are no less powerful. Some of the music i listen to has singers using no actual words. They are also no less powerful. So I totally agree with you.

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I think the religious songs are meant to choke us up and make us feel something that isn't really there. My mom used to play Ave Maria on the piano while we would sing. She was raised by my atheist grandparents, but sent to a catholic boarding school, where she learned to play piano. She had to convert to Catholicism to marry my dad, which always confused me, but it is what it is.

I remember that my atheist grandmother had a bible in her living room, well read, but my Catholic grandmother didn't own one, at least that I ever saw. I got along better with my atheist grandma, since she seemed to see a bigger picture, which might have helped me slip into freethought myself.

It's there, trust me ... the feelings elicited by sublime music are deep. I was raised in a Protestant faith that was (is) extremely anti-Catholic, and so I never learned the translation for Ave Maria (and the many other Catholic texts set to beautiful music) until much later in life. It didn't bother me that I didn't understand the words ... it was the music that mattered.

@p-nullifidian I mean strong feelings for a myth. (My personal feelings anyway.)

@Julie808 And I get choked up watching Polar Express with the kids ... our mythological impressions run very deep.

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[socialsci.libretexts.org];

One of the most frequently paraphrased statements of Karl Marx is, religion is the opium of the people. It was translated from the German original, “Die Religion… ist das Opium des Volkes,” and is often referred to as “religion is the opiate of the masses. ” Taken in context, Marx is arguing that religion was constructed by people to calm uncertainty over our role in the universe and in society.

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What a beautiful meme. Gonna have to steal it.

A most common defense used against those who might dare apply their own, native reasoning faculties is the teaching that we cannot trust our own reasoning and are flawed from birth with original sin for which we're condemned from the very start without salvation.

Living and observing life beyond mere human form demonstrates that abilities are not possessed without reason; Nature's reason. We don't have to know what Nature's intentionality is to see it playing-out and balanced in our entire (unmolested) environment.

If we have the ability to think and reason about our cognitions, it must be for cause. Nature is rather frugal that way. I like his use of 'veils of ignorance' and consider those veils to be information. Knowledge is also information but qualified by actually being so; by being true. Many a mind is veiled by a fabric comprised of what is not real because we also have imagination. Imagination manipulated early with false information can make a life-long status of fear based self imprisonment. As you say, 'man (male) made malarkey designed to control the masses'.

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