ADVERTISING MY AGE
Despite my many years and rapidly advancing decrepitude have forgotten my age and acted inappropriately on more than one occasion recently. Decided to let my beard grow showing all the white hair more as a reminder to myself that I'm not in my 30's much less my 20's anymore. Maybe it's more of a guy thing but do you try to remind yourself of your age? You don't need to? You don't want to?
I don't really think about it. Every now and then I'll get a reminder that I'm not 20 anymore...when it takes a little longer to recover from a hangover, for example. Otherwise, I don't think about my age much. Every year I get older means another year I survived, so I see aging as a blessing.
I turned 60 in January. I rarely wear makeup, I do not color my hair. I stay well hydrated and don't each much processed food which I'm told is why I have great skin, few wrinkles. I might not look 60 but my knees tell another story. My mom died at 45 and I decided I'd never regret growing older, she never got the chance. I don't know how to act my age, I've never been this age before. I act how I wanna. I don't give a flying f..k for what others might think.
I'm not going down without a fight! I feel 29 inside and I will live a fitness lifestyle until my last day regardless of the health issues that may confront me. Age is only a number. It is my state of mind that ultimately determines my abilities. I will do whatever I must to live a full and happy life!
At 53, for the first time with a diagnosis, I have a sense that my life is finite. It's not just words on paper anymore, it's personal. I've been fishing around for over a year trying to absorb this new reality and gut reaction was the blues like I haven't been blue in many years and that lasted a few months. But, happily have reached my go with the flo, own it before it owns you approach: I aim to go gray. It will be a process, take time, be something I can grow into. Fortunately, it's a new fad and I think more than a fad, embracing gray has become chic. Beyond hair, so many of us value our elders, the aging process, the wisdom that comes with experience, the realities of wear and tear. I want to quietly celebrate my existence, every day, as it comes.
...'acted inappropriate'...how? Was it silly, childish, insulting or just plain stupid? Did you order some of that new men's 'butt lift,' underwear, that keeps popping up...when I try and read my news feeds! If it is worse than these, maybe you should just fess-up...so that you can be 'word flogged,' on this site! I have not noticed that I 'acted' much different while aging than I did...as my younger self. I can't run now...but I haven't been tested lately, either! Oh! The loss of my once long and flowing hair, has changed, that was an act of nature...that I did not appreciate! We may get old and appear to be slower, but it is not necessary to act old! Just keep 'acting' the way you have always done...in spite of dropped words, being bald, wrinkles and no long distance running ability! Inappropriate how? That is the question?
I'm so far from "normal" at this point it never crosses my mind. I'm breathing so I'm not going to complain about it, lol. I also find that most of the people who act my age are exceedingly boring, but that might have more to do with my maturity level than my age.
TBH the ONLY time age has been an issue is at the VA. I've had tons of issues health-wise for my age, which means, since it is a teaching hospital, I'm usually a lab rat. It goes something like this:
Them: "Wow! You shouldn't have had all this stuff for a man of your age!"
Me: "Really, chucklenuts? That medical school education is really paying off, huh?"
Okay, I don't respond like that. I sure the hell am thinking it though.