Priorities for next 14 days :
No matter what , making sure I have no wear down panties on and matching bra will be nice
Just in case my behind ends back on a stretcher again

Well . Kidney stone . Delightful . Decided to dislodge from kidney Friday at 0300 after vigorous chest compressions for 17 mnt on a dead man . He is alive . Honestly , I will like to go back on Monday night and punch him on the face
Less than 1 hr later , I found self on the floor screaming / vomiting / thinking I am dying / cold sweat / fuck me to tears , this is not happening ? A CT scan later , some morphine, that made me rant in both Italian and Greek and absolutely 0 English , and I was told I have I new best friend that I need to pee her out . I decided it’s a “ she “.

Made it home Friday morning some how , anticipating snow , which promptly came , and not going to leave my boys alone in the bedroom for 48 hrs , u know ? Since Friday I have been drinking an ocean of water and lemon juice, I live in the bathroom , I can’t get to ease enough to sleep , and motrin is Jesus

Speaking of Jesus , oh I saw Jesus Saturday morning too Doc F who I know for 100 yr at ER , and he knows that narcotics and I we don’t mix well , insisted of giving me Percocet as well just in case . Well . I broke down Saturday morning and took half of that crap . Last time I had any Opioid besides morphine at ER was 20 yrs ago for dental . Sure shit , Saturday morning was a spinning room here , a “ where can I hold to crawl to the bathroom , and who are these green people looking at me “. No thanks , motrin it is

So . I haven’t peed that bitch yet , and I am getting nervous bcz sure I have to go to work tmrw . That’s not an option . We are so understaff , especially for critical care , not even funny . Plus I’m charge , and that species doesn’t exist in the menu anymore

I am f defeated , I will admit , I am f tired , and I try very hard to see the good in every shit
Epiphany , and the light up stairs turned on ,
I am gonna leave u and my drama w a good feeling / thought :
Hey , could had be worse , right ? When dr F came back to tell me what the deal was , I thought for sure I ll hear the “ cancer” word . I mean , realistically , smoked cigarets like a moron for many years , and cigarets free only the last 4. So I was ready to hear the bullshit . Hey . Kidney stone not bad after all , right ? Right . I wish to nobody the pain that I had Friday or the dull pain that I have now . Better , I wish u guys know what foods / habits prevent kidney stone formations . Water ( plenty )/ citrus fruits / juice , cucumbers , bananas , and avoid as much as possible salt / high calcium intake / and Uric acid producing foods . Ok I am done . I love u guys . ♥️
Stay healthy .” Wegonnamakeit “
Ps : the moment I pee that thing , u gonna hear about fireworks in Virginia Beach , bcz I am going to exhale like a happy dragon