My last Resurrection Sunday!
The clock just chimed and my last "Resurrection Sunday" behind the pulpit is behind me. This has been a long time coming. When I first joined the site two years ago, I couldn't see a way out. My role as a pastor was the core of my identity and my living.
I've spent the last two years fortifying my finances and preparing for an exit. If all goes as planned, I'll be free of this profession, my shit storm of a marriage, and a life lived that's a lie by July. I cannot express how hard I've worked for this day. I no longer am solely dependent on my church income, I'm nearly debt free, and have set all the pieces in order to get the hell out of here.
I have no illusions there are no obstacles in my future, but I can finally see the light. July can't get here fast enough.
I enjoy the site. Anyone ever looking for a late night chat, hit me up. I'm a night owl and rarely sleep much.
One last thing,
The relief when I bowed my head this morning and said amen was palpable. It's not my last sermon, but it's my last big one. And I can finally see the light at the end of the tunnel! Reverend John Doe is almost behind me. I can't wait!
Congratulations I hope the rest of your escape goes well for you. As a former JW ans at one time an elder i have an idea of how you feel I stood on the pkatform with my mouth quoting the bible and saying how wonderful jehovah is etc etc my head was saying what a load of crap.
That must be a incredible relief, being able to break two very corrupt relationships, to climb out of the rut and head for the high ground. It doesn't necessarily mean you'll be happier but at least you will again have the potential to be happy. Good luck mate.
I can’t imagine how you have managed to hold it all together all this time. I have heard one or two clergymen on TV (from the Anglican C of E) admit that they have lost their faith in god, I thought it was curious that they were still holding down jobs as vicars and hadn’t resigned. I suppose there are monetary factors involved, I can understand that, but that you managed to maintain that level of subterfuge and pretence must have taken a big toll on your mental health. I wish you well for the future.
Good for you! My own departure from christianity to atheism was devastating. I was studying for a Bachelor in Theology only to discover that it was all based on myth at best or outright lies at worst. I discovered that most of my professors were hanging in by their fingernails, and then one of the said to me ‘You are god’. Applying reason to that statement resulted in the knowledge that I have everything I need to live in this world is within me, and that god is in fact a figment of human imagination. I was in a deep abyss for about two years, came out the others side a strong capable woman. It has been over 20 years now and I am freer now than I ever was for the first 40yrs of my life.
Hope you continue to go from strength to strength in your new found freedom.
I applaud you in your endeavor to finally free yourself from the gilded cage of faith. I never really participated extensively in church. I was baptized as a boy of six and just believed because my family did, so when my time came I was twelve and simply told my mom I didn’t want to go to church anymore and she was great about it despite being a believer to this day. My faith wavered for years until I just let it go around 18. I can’t imagine how difficult your predicament is/was but now you can return to who you were when you were born into the world, innocent but this time you are free to make your own way. Congratulations.
Wow, congratulations on getting through your last major church service. Was it televised from your home? I'm wondering what your plans are for exiting stage left. Will you come clean with your congregation? They might feel disappointment, maybe anger that they've been lied to, manipulated, duped. Do you think you will remain in contact with some of the people you got close to? It sounds like you are on the verge of an incredibly empowering experience, one that will allow you to get real with yourself about who you are and what you believe.
Good luck to you.
It isn't even rational to believe that a crucified man would be given a tomb, and especially when contemporary history of the time says nothing about him. That's right. No mention of poor Jesus from Romans or his own people. No mention of his name by anyone who lived in his timeline. No mention of anyone outside of the bible reference who was tried and crucified in this manner and the bible is not history. If a man was important enough to have an audience with Pilate, history on both sides should have said something. The reality is that Pilate most likely would not have cared and chances are he and Jesus could not speak the same language. Those that want you to believe in Jesus had to fabricate a story about why he died.