What have you learned about yourself recently?
That I am not invulnerable, my sight, possibly hearing are failing, now I have shot my shoulders in the past 6 weeks. I have rarely been sick and never seriously injured in my life. not being able to swim properly or to surf at the moment is really quite schocking to me.
This is hard to admit because I am still coming to terms with it and I haven't quite figured out my way forward. I have learned recently that just because I rarely experience jealousy in friendships/relationships let alone intense jealousy, and just because I work hard to keep jealous thoughts and feelings in check, it doesn't mean intense, not dangerous but definitely mind-boggling and painful jealousy can't occur inside me. Been struggling with some serious jealousy issues with regards to an important relationship in my life and keeping it in because I am really embarrassed about both the jealousy itself and the fact that I am a total NEWB at dealing with it. Ugh! It does feel a little better to get it out in view of others/out of my head. This particular emotional experience is throwing me for a massive loop.
I had no "family lore" of Irish heritage (English and Scotch and more, but not Irish); and though I have a bunch of very prominent Haudenosaunee ancestors, I did not seem to have any European ancestors of note. Then I found that I am a descendant of the Irish King Naill of the Nine Hostages, and and Brit King Eochaid. (This us not so surprising because both dudes "really got around"!)
My female (gender mode) side seems stronger, probably because I recently doubled the amount of derris scandens herb I take. Evidence is that yesterday I suddenly bought a pair of loose Thai pants at the market, with bands of rainbow colors. Usually, I just wear black stretch pants I designed/made.
I have a great deal of self discipline. I've been training a coworker for several weeks now, and basically teaching the same procedures on a daily basis. I haven't lost my temper, sworn, or thrown anything yet. I have seriously considered updating my resume, just in case.