The sadness hits me at times for no apparent reason or trigger. Just a coldness that spreads from the empty hole he left behind.
Sometimes I feel like he will come through that door and just for a second, a split second I look and then acknowledge he is gone.
I still can't bring myself to sleep in the bedroom. I can't rest or get comfortable and the sadness returns with a flood of tears. Knowing I will never see him again, touch him, or have a conversation is so heartbreaking.
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Feel free to reply to any comment by clicking the "Reply" button.It will be 4 years this June since I lost my darling Richard. For me, the first two years were really tough. The tears would come often. I am finally at a place where I can think about him and the good times we had and smile, with no tears. There are moments that still bring a tear, but that’s ok.
Redheadedgammy
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Mar 2, 2022
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It doesn't feel okay right now. 
@Betty I learned to embrace those moments and just leaned into the sadness. It was good to cry for me as I was then exhausted and slept for a few hours. Don’t look at your feelings as a negative, “It doesn’t feel okay right now”. Maybe use different words to express your feelings and move your thoughts in a direction that helps you feel better? That worked for me.
@Redheadedgammy I'll do my best. 
@Betty It’s a process for everyone, and we all move at a different pace when healing from such a great loss. Be gentle with yourself. 
It sounds so disturbingly familiar.
WayneDalton
Level 8
Mar 2, 2022
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I can't see past today. I feel so stuck.
i know. the pain eases but never disappears
TheDoubter
Level 9
Mar 2, 2022
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The ache is always there, it's the sadness that hits so hard out of nowhere.
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