Are there things you want or actively work to change about yourself or do you simply accept who you are?
From a personality standpoint, I would love to change my temper. Try as I might, it might still often gets the best of me. From a more physical or chemical perspective, I still seek a cure for insomnia and occasional depression. Mostly I figure I am who I am at this point and change is unachievable.
I don't know if I would be a better person without these traits but I hold my father up as my role model and he certainly lacks my temper.
This is a question that I would have responded to far differently 10 years ago. At 25, I would have ignored this question, too proud to admit I wanted to look more normal. Now, I can tell you that yes, I want to change things about myself, but not.my scars and medical issues, but my quick temper and tendency to be unaware of others around me when deep in thought. Take from that what you will.
I have been working on trying to change things about me since I was 20 years old. I ended up in the hospital at 19 after trying to kill myself so it was a matter of life and death for me. I've found I could change more than I ever dreamed of. I also found there are things about me that were programmed in childhood and I could only learn to mange them. They could never be changed in a way I would be free from fighting it. The first step is awareness and way to many people have little to no real awareness. They will spend there lives bouncing around only running on preprogrammed responses to their environment and seem totally without any control over it. They will feel like a victim and blame others for the place they are in. They often feel that people that admit they aren't prefect are just weak but it's really the opposite is true. It takes a lot of bravery to see what you truly are, accept it, and then fight to change it. It's a fight few people will really have the strength to fight because its a nonstop battle that must be kept up for life in many cases. I have certainly not won most of the fights to change myself. I lose the will for short periods but I truly understand how important the fight is to me. If you do not say to yourself and others you are wrong with any regularity you really aren't looking at yourself very hard. It's humbling to do so, often admitting it to yourself is the hardest part. It doesn't feel good to be humbled but it's good for you. I promise you will start to think more about what you say and do if you are humbled enough.
I would banish my social anxiety so I could have close friends who weren't relatives.
There is hope though, we change daily in small increments and large changes can be brought about over time.
You can change yourself, give yourself time and the attitude to do so.
Anyone who doesn't think they could improve is an egomaniac of some degree, because they think they're perfect already. That said, it's important to accept your own imperfections as part of yourself and part of being human, or you'll never be happy.
It's a fine line. Striving to improve and accepting that you'll never be perfect are the two sides of the coin to being human.
i assume you mean character traits and not, for example, weight loss, which would be a good thing for me to work on.
i am impatient by nature and that's one thing i would like to change.
another is my ptsd, which stops me from getting some of the medical attention i need. i hope i can bring myself to go through with the endometrial biopsy i have scheduled for monday. if i could let them take blood when they needed it and administer anesthesia when that is necessary, my life would be easier. of course the former is a problem that extended beyond my cooperation, because even if i get brave and cooperate, my veins don't (they roll, and they don't produce, and yes i hydrate) and if anyone gets any blood out of me, it coagulates in the medium in the vial before it can be tested. but i wish i could do my part better anyway.
I have weirdy moments when I have doubts about how i come across to others, and then I catch myself on, and think, was it a catastrophe? No! then its nothing to worry about . I think if other people can't cope with me its not my problem to solve it for them unless they want to have a real negotiation or stay out of my range.
My outlook, behavior, and thought process are well within my standards for acceptable outcome.
However, the perception of time is not linear. Every year moves faster then the year before.
I remember watching "Rudolph the Red Nosed Reindeer" The movie took hours. Now, to watch the same movie would take perceived seconds. The time between date-markers such as x-mas season are reduced to small blinks in a short day.
Although in good health with a good probability of a few decades of productive life left, perspectively speaking, I have very few days left on this earth.
Sometimes I wish I experienced emotions the way most of the rest of humanity experiences them. To me, my emotions are an unavoidable consequence of my biology, a mere biological response to stimuli, a thing outside my cogitative functions, a thing to enhance my experiences at the best of times and, a thing to be ignored at the worst of times. edited for typos