Raining and cold here today. Probably why I'm feeling blue today. Cold cloudy rainy days are tough for me. Been having a difficult time the past few weeks, and am not looking forward to holidays at all this year. I've been coming to the site to read and comment to get my mind on something other than missing Richard. Having a hard time meditating and staying focused. Perhaps January and a new year will bring about a new perspective. I hope so. Hope everyone is going to enjoy their time with family.
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2019 is just another fake back dated calendar number. ...the alleged HOLY days pure fiction. ...if you can be with those who love who you love skip the prEyer & alleged miracles and celebrate our memories. ...I miss my dad 29 years now....I keep his stories ALIVE but have no more into my welcome grateful ears
GreenAtheist
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Nov 20, 2018
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I as thinking today how this was Sonia's favorite time of the year?
WayneDalton
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Nov 19, 2018
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We all go through these dark times...just hang in there and they will pass again. Certain times of the year hold memories for us and we can’t change that, but we can use diversionary tactics by occupying our days doing something to fill our minds. Meet friends, do things that you don’t associate Richard with, new things with no memories attached. Spend all day here on the site, I certainly find it a distraction....can’t get much else done some days! The holidays will be over before you know it and another new year will begin, another chapter for us all....hope it’s a good one for you.
Marionville
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Nov 19, 2018
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Always love your replies! Thank you for your wise words. I'm hoping that by next year things will be a little easier. Everything is just to fresh right now.
I feel ya. This time of year is always miserable for me and I've already started to falling into feeling sorry for myself. My husband was diagnosed with cancer on the 16th of December, was unable to get out of bed Christmas Day and passed away at the end of January. Hang in there! Bad times will come and go.
Kojaksmom
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Nov 19, 2018
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I don't think you're feeling sorry for yourself, it's just grief that you lost your husband, and since it was this time of year that he got sick of course you'll feel awful. This will be my first thanksgiving and Xmas holidays without Richard. We would either have the kids and grandkids here or go to their house for thanksgiving. We never celebrated Xmas, but did have a few friends over for the Winter solstice celebration which was always fun. This year I have nothing planned. Are you getting together with any friends or family?
The first year is heartbreaking. The numbness is overwhelming. Trust me it does get better, but you never stop missing them.
@Kojaksmom that's what most people are telling me. I'm just trying to get thru this first year. Hopefully the new year and time will bring some relief for the saddness.
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