This question is going to be controversial, but with the subject matter it's to be expected. Is it racist to not be at all interested in guys of your same race when it comes to dating? My mom says no. I've no malice or hatred, I just feel numb and indifferent when it comes to Black men. This stems from the fact that when I was 8 or 9, my older cousin sexually assaulted me twice. Then when I was older (pre teens) I almost got into fights with other male cousins because they would make passes at me, and I had to defend myself somehow. Yeah, my family is gross. Anyway, the root of it most of all was my father who wasn't ever around and when he was, didn't want us around. To this day our relationship is still rocky because he's manipulated me for money and shelter, insulted the fact that I'm mentally ill and is a religious hypocrite. I can't forgive him entirely because he threatened to hit me once when I kicked him out of my apartment. Lastly, I see that not one female relative of mines have had a happy or loving relationship with any of them. Then the hypocrisy in the Black community that it was okay for them to date women outside their race, but when we did, it wasn't okay because we were "splitting up the black family". My father threw that in my face once because my ex was white. Thing is that I don't tear down Black men to raise up other races. To be honest, I rip on all men for being idiots but I like dating other races because I can be myself with them, they accept that I'm non theist, mentally ill and that I'm a shy, goofy nerd and geek with opinions. I respect black men like a few select uncles and cousins who mind you, have white or Hispanic partners but I don't really say much about it. I'm just doing me, but it's hard to try to explain how I feel to Black men that I don't feel the same as they do because I'm afraid of the backlash.